Crazy. Just plain crazy.

We all have those friends...sometimes we are those friends....that always have the crazy outlandish ideas. Like Christmas with the Penguins or buying a beach house. You always say "OMG! Yes that would be awesome!" because it does sound awesome and you want to be supportive of their run away daydreams but with full expectation that you will never actually have to pay up because said ideas are legitimately crazy. 

Well that "friend" is actually my boss. That crazy idea is working in India for 6 weeks. and today is payday. 

So here I am. In the business class lounge of Dubai waiting for my flight to India...when did that happen?

I'm looking around and suddenly realize...I had forgotten to wear my Armani powersuit for my 15 hour plane flight!...oh wait, I don't have one of those...business people are silly...

I feel like a kid playing dress up...similar to this 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4v_alwa4V_Y&feature=youtube_gdata_player

I feel excited about a new adventure. 

I feel spoiled for being in business class. 

I feel F.O.M.O. (fear of missing out) for life back in SoCal. 

I feel honored to be trusted to go on this rotation. 

and

I feel terrified. 

Terrified of being inadequate

Terrified of failing

Terrified of not living up to expectations

When I cannot see the process, I doubt the outcome with greater fervor than Thomas

I don't know where my hotel is.

I don't know how far from the office I am staying. 

I don't know anyone working out there. 

I don't know Indian culture 

New York was the same way. I was scared to get on that plane...I just hid it from most people. But I was fine once I got there. 

But right now...

So much unknown. 

And yet this is just one example of how I am called to sit in the unknown and listen and trust and be. 

Be. 

So here is to trusting the minimally illuminated process because God is good and is one great storyteller.

I'm going to go find some free beverages to toast with....