I think I have started about 15 different poems while I have been in India...but none have felt right. None have felt genuine enough. None have been rhythmic enough. None have felt deep enough. I can't quiet get the right words on paper. I use few words to begin with, so each one weighs a great deal and I want it to be right. So I backspace to start over. And I try again.
I am still cautious to share any creative piece, especially ones that are in process...even so, here are some that survived the backspace...
I am still cautious to share any creative piece, especially ones that are in process...even so, here are some that survived the backspace...
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I am caught in between
A tension quite as mean
In a world of Profession
And a world of Confession
The stories are split
and don't reconcile
But to ignore and forget
Is a gross form of denial
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The bend toward entitlement
and frustration
sends chills down my spine
and pushes resignation
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Tell me a story that will make me cry
Tell me a story that doesn't leave an eye dry
Tell me a story that will make me laugh
Tell me a story about that riff raff
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To glimpse the divine
In the eyes of the thine
Is a beauty beyond fine
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This tapping from my memory
Disturbs me from my revelry
If you could hear it just one time
It burns to spare not one dime
Tap Tap Tap
Do you not see me
Or do you not care
Tap Tap Tap
Can you not hear me
I see you avoid my stare
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To me, these don't seem worth sharing because they are incomplete thoughts. I recoil from process. I want finished. So to sit in the incomplete process and hold these stanza's loosely is uncomfortable...but necessary.
And maybe these are incomplete because this is really only part 1 of 3. Maybe it's because like Israel, I don't want to reflect on India because it will mean something. Maybe it's because I crave perfection like I crave breath. And maybe it's because it's not about the right words. Maybe it's because its about the process.
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Maybe it's about the swinging pendulum
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